September 30th 2009 a day that will live in infamy, it was a fun and exciting time for all.

TeleComp my former employer decided I was no longer a valued employee and laid me off. Was I angry? Yes I felt betrayed by the owners. I was always told that I would always have a job no matter what. Well that turned out to be not true.

I have come to realize that it was more than likely the best thing for me and my family. For a short time I felt like the 11 years I spent there was a waste. What was the point? Building friendships and relationships for it to be just taken away. Over the past months I have come to terms with what happened. I never did understand it.

Today was a realization, the 11 years was most likely just training. Training for what? Right now I think the training was for me to have the necessary skills to be able to run my own business. Is it true I am not 100% on that but that seems to be the case right now. I had always told myself I would never start my own business. Did not want the hassle. Did not want the responsibility. That started changing. As I had time to think about what I should do.

I have put and still am putting applications in at different businesses until my company starts to grow and can support me and my wife I will stop putting out applications. The business I have started is basically what I was doing for telecomp computer repair in all its various forms. I plan on expanding that into websites, graphic design (for print, web, and logos).

What is contentment?

• Happiness with one’s situation in life
• Contentment (also called complacence) is the neuro-physiological experience of satisfaction and being at ease in one’s situation, bodymind (cf. John Money), body, and/or mind.
• contented – satisfied or showing satisfaction with things as they are; “a contented smile”
• a form of fulfillment sought by femininity characterized by peace of mind. “Contentment is a reward for depth of character which serves society, avoiding selfishness.” [Psychoanalysis and Civilization] analog: happiness.
• A state of mind in which one’s desires are confined to his lot whatever it may be (1 Tim. 6:6; 2 Cor. 9:8). …
• More than a passive state of mind. It is a virtue to be actively cultivated in order to free the mind from the effects of pleasure and pain. …

10. I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13. I can do everything through him who gives me strength. 14. Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles. 15. Moreover, as you Philippians know, in the early days of your acquaintance with the gospel, when I set out from Macedonia, not one church shared with me in the matter of giving and receiving, except you only; 16. for even when I was in Thessalonica, you sent me aid again and again when I was in need. 17. Not that I am looking for a gift, but I am looking for what may be credited to your account. 18. I have received full payment and even more; I am amply supplied, now that I have received from Epaphroditus the gifts you sent. They are a fragrant offering, an acceptable sacrifice, pleasing to God. 19And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.

more verses on contentment

1Ti 6:6-9 , Heb 13:5-6, 2Co 12:7 -10

So contentment is not something you just get or have, you must work for it and learn how to be content.

As i was going to sleep the other night this popped into my head. Ubiquitous dysphoria, where did that come from? I had no idea what those two words even meant. So I rolled over and grabbed the handy iPhone to find the definition of those words. I do not know that i have ever even heard these words much less together. Here is the definition for those who do not know.

u·biq·ui·tous (yū-bĭk’wĭ-təs)
adj. Being or seeming to be everywhere at the same time; omnipresent.

dys·pho·ri·a (dĭs-fôr’ē-ə, -fōr’-)
n. An emotional state characterized by anxiety, depression, or unease.

Why did these words come to me?(do not know) Does it have anything to do with my lay off?(possible) Am i just strange?(YES)

Any ways peeps there that is take it as you will post comments responses and the such.

Also still looking for advise from someone with experience in starting there on business.

check out my business idea here fixedinnovations.com
email me here jeremiah@fixedinnovations.com